A Hard Day’s Night: The Fear and Wonder of College


I’ve learned so much about myself and I’ve learned so much more that I can be capable of in the coming years. It’s hard to believe I’ve changed so much in one semester; I can’t even fathom what I could do in four years!

Compared to San Francisco, the town I grew up in is pretty small. A little place in Southwestern Idaho, nothing to do, nowhere to be and no one is in a hurry to do anything. I had heard tales of the city, having family in the area still, and knowing that my father and two of my aunts were born there, my grandparents had lived there longer ... I had a history in San Francisco, and it called out to me even a thousand or so miles away in my hometown. All of the tales that I knew of were alluring, drawing me like a moth to the flame. The knowledge of what lay ahead of me was overwhelmingly exciting, and enough to make me crave the new life.

The first few weeks were fun by day, going out, seeing the city, settling into the world around me, but the nights were long and hard. I wasn’t used to being in a different bed, not seeing my parents every night. I missed my home, I missed my friends and I missed my dogs. I often would find myself, honestly, locked up in the bathroom or the closet panicking because I didn’t know what I was doing with my life or what I should expect out of myself.

Of course, once classes started, that got quite a bit easier. Everything fell into place, and I met nice people, none of which I could call my friends quite yet, but everyone that I knew was sweet, helpful, definitely good allies to have in the coming semester. Classes came about and my routine fell into place, and as the semester went on, I found things that I loved, people I enjoyed, and I may have made some of the best friends I will ever have in the clubs that I got myself involved in. I surrounded myself with passionate people, something I could never find back in Idaho.

In high school, I never would have dreamed of doing the things I’ve done in college. I came in to do music production and audio editing for movies, cartoons, et cetera, and here I am living it up in the city doing voice acting, editing and acting in my friends’ student films.

Dive headfirst into the fear of the unknown and land in a new world. Open yourself up to life and take in the new experiences you could have, the new friends you could make. College is a big thing, and San Francisco is a great city to discover yourself in.